At 2am this morning I was thinking one thing- must sleep, must sleep, must sleep. I am plagued with insomnia sporadically, but this time it was different. From about 10pm-2am, there were so many thoughts swirling around in my head that I couldn’t even think about sleep. So, what caused such a stir? My pending project.
I feel as though I should be enjoying every minute of my last class as an undergraduate . . . but, sometimes I’m just not feeling it. I’m not sure if it’s about feeling overwhelmed with how much I have to complete in the next 7 weeks with my portfolio or the fact that I have such senioritis that I’m turning into one lazy gal.
The portfolio is such an issue . . . and I know that I can’t wait for inspiration to come to me because I have three specific deadlines to hit, but sometimes I just want to scream! I keep procrastinating on something that should be getting me pumped. Shouldn’t I be excited to bring everything together? Everything that I worked so hard on for 2-3 years . . . and yet, nothing is clicking, and I feel the pressure building. There’s a quote that I read in my photography class last quarter that I’m really trying to let sink in . . .
“The advice I like to give young artists, or really anybody who’ll listen to me, is not to wait around for inspiration. Inspiration is for amateurs; the rest of us just show up and get to work. If you wait around for the clouds to part and a bolt of lightning to strike you in the brain, you are not going to make an awful lot of work. All the best ideas come out of the process; they come out of the work itself. Things occur to you. If you’re sitting around trying to dream up a great art idea, you can sit there a long time before anything happens. But if you just get to work, something will occur to you and something else will occur to you and something else that you reject will push you in another direction. Inspiration is absolutely unnecessary and somehow deceptive. You feel like you need this great idea before you can get down to work, and I find that’s almost never the case.” – Chuck Close
So far I’ve selected 12 pieces to include in my portfolio. I’m not sure if the ones above will make the cut, but they were so much fun to work on! The first 3 quotes are from a project that I did in my first year as a design student, and the 4th piece above is a page out of a booklet I made about the font Garamond. I’m pretty sure I’ll include that one.
Lots of work ahead, and I’m praying A LOT that all of this will all come together eventually. . .